This is melancholy
I want to know about holism and materialism because I believe in both.
I want to read more good books and think about philosophical things.
Hell, I want to write a book about philosophical things. I have vague feelings about what I want to say and how (and I’ll typeset it with LaTeX) but I can’t get it out onto the page. The characters are even there but they can’t get their act together.
I want to meet more people and talk about these things.
I want to remember how to speak, read, and write Japanese again. Or at least get more practice so I don’t forget.
I want to understand the universe and cosmology, from the largest supercluster to the smallest string. That’s why I’m in physics. But I want to see how it connects to sociology and history and the future and religion and everything else, which you can’t find in Lagrangians and vector operators.
I really need to figure out what to do.
