I’m having trouble with this whole cause and effect thing.
When I was young and got sick, there were a few things that my mom would feed me. I don’t think chicken soup was ever one of them. What I do remember is jello, toast, 7-up, and canned peaches.
It’s been years since I lived at home for any appreciable length of time, so now when I get sick I have to take care of myself, but those same things that my mom used to give me to make me feel better still work even though I have to get them for myself.
There have been a few times lately that I found myself craving those things even without being sick, and its always a bit odd. At least a few times I’ve found myself standing in the grocery store, looking at the rows of canned peach slices, knowing that I want to eat some despite also knowing that they’re not something you just go and eat when you’re feeling nice and healthy like this.
But I buy the peaches anyway, saying to myself, if I’m craving them I should buy some whether I’m sick or not. And every time I’ve done that, two days later I’m in bed with any combination of a headache, soar throat, and fever. I bought some peaches on sale last week and since yesterday I’ve been sneezing and grimacing every time I swallow.
So, either my body knows it’s coming down with something before my brain does and has been conditioned over years to know that when I get sick I should each peaches, as if that might ward it off, or else its the peaches that make me sick in the first place. Which is more likely?